How is this possible? How can I be a Beta female just like that? I'm not even from this pack, so how could the Alpha trust me with such a high position? I haven't really done anything honorary; I was just doing my duty. I was indebted to them from the start, so I just wanted to do something that would make me feel less like a leech, but I truly don't deserve this position.
Especially as I can't even speak. How am I supposed to be of any use to the Alpha when I can't even express myself? I know that the Alpha already has a Beta male, but still, this position will require me to contribute to every decision of the Alpha, and how can I do that? Just how am I supposed to go about this? No, I can't accept this. I just can't.
"Don't you dare, Evelyn. Do you really want to reject the position given to you by the Alpha himself? Do you know how huge of an insult that would be? Do you want to seem disrespectful and ungrateful to the Alpha, despite everything they've done for us?" Tara questioned, putting me in a tight spot.
'Of course not, I would never even think of doing something like that. It's just that this position isn't right for me.' I tried to make her understand, but Tara wasn't willing to listen to me.
"No, I'll have none of it. I've been letting you make all the decisions, Evelyn, but not this time. Do you know just how many people greatly desire this position you've just been given?" she questioned.
"That's exactly the point; I'm not capable enough. I'll practically be of no use to the Alpha because I can't speak, I can't make suggestions, and I can't be involved in arguments or conversations. I don't just want to have the position when I won't be able to contribute anything; it would be better if the Alpha would give it to someone more deserving. Someone who is capable," I told her.
"Evelyn, you're doing it again. You're letting your lack of speech define you. You said you would stop letting it affect you, but look at what you're doing? You're letting it make you feel inferior. Everyone has weaknesses, but it doesn't stop them from dreaming and aiming for the top, and it shouldn't stop you.
You're smart, intelligent, and sensible, so don't let that one weakness overshadow all your strengths. You don't have to say anything; that's what your notebook and pen are for. Alpha Richard chose you for this position because he has seen your capabilities. He knows that you are up for it, and only you can do this, so do you really want to disappoint and humiliate him in front of the whole pack by refusing?" Tara questioned, and I shook my head in the negative. When she puts it like that, how can I refuse?