Ryan's POV
We left the mansion without talking to Mother. She didn't spare me a glance but was all smiles with Valerie.
I thought having Valerie talk to her on my behalf would make it easy for her to forgive me and that would make it easy to approach her.
I am desperate to talk to her and assure her that everything will be fine. I can't do anything to help her if we can't talk. We need to talk about how she feels and I need to convince her to continue the treatment.
She shouldn't give up. She taught me how not to give up. Why would she give up on the treatment when she can keep it going?
What confuses me more is the fact that Father isn't saying anything about it too. When I brought it up during dinner after Valerie and Mother left us, he ignored me.
Should I go and visit him tomorrow? I feel sad knowing that Anita, who has always been away from home, knows more than I do. She gave me a sign to keep shut but I can't even comprehend what she meant by that.
Didn't she say Father knew? If he knew, why is he acting nonchalant like he isn't about to lose his wife? If he doesn't know, why didn't he act surprised when I talked about her and cancer?