Not because I'm scared that I'll be tempted to take Kate up on her offer; it just gave me an unpleasant reminder of what my life used to be like. I don't want those memories to taint New York. I'd much rather make new memories here with her.
She gives me a loud sigh and tilts her head to the side slightly. "Rhodes, I can't, I'm sorry. I would only be there for like two days and I'm too nervous to fly there on my own. I'm sorry, but maybe once school is done for the year you can take me."
Does that mean when she's done for Christmas or at the end of the school year in like May? That would be stretching to the end of the six-month contract. Honestly, fuck that contract; I hardly agree with any of the things I first wrote on there anyway. Now all the things I wrote down in there I want her to do because that's what she chooses to do, not because I told her to. I used to worry that as soon as the contract was over she was going to just leave, but ever since she asked me to stop paying her I no longer think that will happen. I had to actively try and stop myself from feeling certain ways because I wasn't sure that she would stay, but now that I know that she is, I can let myself feel however the fuck I want about her.
"I know, just wish you were here now." I sound like a fucking sap. Maybe if she came here and she loved it, she would want to move here with me. I'm pretty sure I could convince her that this is the place to be.
"I miss you too, you'll be alright. A few more days then you'll be back home." She gives me a slight pout as she speaks. I don't know if I directly said that I miss her, but I should have. I do miss her; I fucking want her here. I don't miss my apartment back in London, my 'home'. I miss her; she feels more like home than anything else I've ever really known.
"Yeah, you're right. God, I want to rip that outfit right off of you," I say with a smirking grin. Now that I'm back in my apartment alone I can say that shit that I've wanted to say to her the whole time. Amelia erupts into giggles and covers her eyes with her hand for a moment or two.
"Rhodes..." She begins to warn me, but I can tell she likes it.
"Don't you wish I was there, making you feel good?" The blush and endearing smile on her face gives me her answer already, but I want to hear the words.