My heart feels as though it's jumped up into my throat. It's only been three months that we've known each other, that's far too early to say that we're in love. But at the same time, I've never been in love before, I don't know what that feels like. Maybe the feelings that I have for Rhodes are love? I can't say yes, but I also can't say no.
"I don't know, maybe? Come on, how am I supposed to know?" My voice raises slightly as a wide grin curls upwards on Poppy's face. The car starts again.
"Oh honey, I have a sneaky feeling that you might be." I put my head in my hands at her answer. "What's wrong with that?"
I take a deep sigh, resting my head back against the seat. "Because that means that I'm probably in love with one of the most emotionally unavailable men in London. Sure he's come a long way, but how long is that going to last?"
Poppy takes a right turn before she speaks again. "Babes, you've got to have a little faith in people. Yes, hotel hottie's been giving you a bit of a rough time, but he might be in love with you too?" I nearly laugh at the notion.
"This isn't one of those cliché romance novels where he's a bad boy but he's good for her and will miraculously change all of his ways so that they can be together. This is real life, and in real life people like me don't get their happily ever after with people like him," I sigh. That's just my belief. I'd love to just be able to have hope that things can work, but my brain is very clearly wired a different way.
Poppy frowns. "Is this just because he's rich?"
"No, it's not. He's from a completely different world than I am, we are fundamentally very different people. He has had this large loving family supporting him since day one, he's traveled the world, he's dated dozens of women and he's rich beyond his wildest dreams. He clearly has his issues with control and isn't a big fan of being kind to people just to be kind."