Violence.
Most times that's all I can think of. It's all I can fucking see.
It's all I breathe and feel. It's all I live for.
I most times feel like I'm cursed or doomed to wallow in misery and the horror of my past actions for the rest of my life.
I've done bad stuff. Worse stuff than you've ever heard.
Nightmarish things that will keep you up all night. Very scary stuff.
Ever since I was young I've only known violence and bloodshed.
Kill or be killed. That was the motto Father drilled into my mind at such an early stage in life.