I don't know for how long I cried while Sebastian just stood there awkwardly. I guess emotions were strange to him. He didn't know anything about how to comfort people.
“I'm so stupid. Why did I allow myself to get carried away by nonsense? This is all my fault. I should have just said no and pushed him away. I shouldn't have allowed him to touch me. That was wrong!” I chastised myself sternly as my tears flowed uncontrollably.
“Don't beat yourself up over something you can't control. It's a natural human thing to do. Just don't blame yourself too much. It's human nature, Victoria.” He shrugged as he tried to make me feel better.
I looked at him in disbelief as he lit up a cigarette. As he saw me looking at him, he shrugged one more time carelessly.
“I don't even want to carry his child, Sebastian,” I said honestly. He just laughed humorlessly.
“You're a different type of woman, Victoria. Many women and even men would kill to get to spend a night with him, but you, you got it effortlessly, and you even get to bear his child. And also, most importantly, he wants to marry you. I don't understand you at all, Victoria.” Sebastian laughed out loud like I really was amusing him.
“Please, Sebastian, can you help me? I don't want to spend the rest of my life with him. I'll die; my very soul can't survive it. He'll kill me,” I begged desperately.
I didn't want to die, and Alessandro looked like he'd kill me if I ever acted out of line.